What's This All About?

I don't often go out of my way to recommend movies. I love movies but I think everyone should find them at their own pace. Still, there are exceptions to every rule. Last year I made it a point to shove people in the direction of Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. This year it is...

Pirates of the Carribean II: Cthulhu's Revenge/Dead Man's Chest.

I know, sequels suck. Not today. This movie blows away it's predecessor in every respect. The characters are more captivating, the story has more depth, and cheesy swashbuckling action is fan-friggin-tabulous. The Lady is a great addition to the cast even in a minor role. I tend to walk away from swashbuckling flicks thinking of how it relates to the RPG 7th Sea. This time I walked away realizing how much more 7th Sea should be. If you don't enjoy over-the-top, rail leaping, sail swinging action this won't be for you but I'd also have to ask what you're doing reading my livejournal if you suck that bad.

See this movie. Half a dozen times. Do it or Cthulhu will eat you.

So I started school on Monday for my Associates in Sciences of Surgical Technology. It was a huge pain in my ass to get the loans and now I'm struggling with a daytime schedule again but I'm psyched about the whole thing. Twelve months of classes and I'll be able to test for the certification. 6 more and I'll have the Associates to use as a springboard into a Bachelors if the whim strikes me. So, that's what I'm working on now. Good times.

Wrapping my mind around school has left me with little left for gaming, so I probably won't be starting anything for a few weeks. Still running Growing Up in Theah, though, and it seems to be running well despite the occasional speedbump in the form of a lack of self-reliance among the players.

I am getting so burned out on 7th Sea. Between playing in a Los Vagos PbP, running an exploration based PbP, and running a tabletop brutes-in-training game I am up to my elbows in Roll & Keep. No more for me, I know my limits.

I'm playing Serenity now. Playing, not running, which is a decent change of pace. It has been good times with my 15 year old mute chinaboy mechanic. Next on my list is a Little Fears game that will develop into a Hunter game. The possibilities of such a setup amuse me to no end.

Also, Oblivion still rules after playing it for nearly three months.

I have these two kittens in the house now. They're less annoying than I expected them to be. Maybe I can train them to fight and start a gambling den in my old office. I don't spend much time in there since my computer took sick.

So my AGoT campaign kicked off two weeks ago and has been going just swell, by golly. Ricky has been kind enough to keep a summary of the events on his livejournal ( located here ). I hope to have killed off all the PCs by April.

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

( The Rest... )

I'm not sure why I like that song so much. I thought it was just the scene I heard it in but I still can't shake it so it must be the song itself. I'm also not sure why I stopped watching Scrubs. Such a good show. Now I have to wait for the 3rd season to hit DVD. "Wherever you go in life, always watch out for Johnny the tackling Alzheimers patient."

So I picked up Shadowrun 4th Ed. I'm rather pleased with it and I may even consider running it in the future. At present I have A Game of Thrones with a bunch of half-wits. Nah, they're 3/4-wits at least. Since gaming with Group B is having serious scheduling issues I guess I'm stuck with Group A. Could be worse, though. Like Group A could fight over the last JuJuBee in the box despite there being boxes of them in the cabinet. Sorry, bad analogy. They're good people, but I'm sure I'll have to kill Ricky's character by the third session because he'll question the size of my stones. Or maybe I'll just threaten but not actually do it cause I lack courage, like that lion from the Wizard of Oz.

Kiss Kiss Bang Bang isn't out on DVD yet, which pisses me off. I know that movie has been out long enough for a DVD release, dammit. Also, Hollywood Video is a big building made of crap. I couldn't find Johnny Mnemonic, Strange Days, or eXistenZ. I oughta cut up my membership card and throw it in their collective faces.

So I've been in something of a mood this last week. The kind of mood where every little thing gets under my skin. Where I want to get really drunk but don't think it would be a good idea. I admit to never being fond of the holidays but it isn't just that this year. I don't know the exact cause for it but I think I've fallen into a malaise because I am missing something. Some accomplishment or goal. Which is odd because I don't have any goals. Maybe that is the problem. I'm just getting by. Going through the days. I lack direction. Sure, I have things I'd like to do. I'd like to get my nursing license. I'd like to buy a house. I'd like to hike the Appalachian Trail and wander Europe. But I don't feel the urge to do those things like I think I should.

So I am sitting here listening to Skynyrd while I organize crap for the Play by Post Serenity and Hunter games I intend to run come the new year. Sifting through some old files on disk I find a chapter of a story I wrote when I was 15. I don't know how I managed to keep it but it gets me thinking. Do I want to write because I enjoy it or because I know I can? I remember wanting so bad to be a writer when I was younger. I used to feel content when I wrote. Now it just seems like work to try and rewrite the chapter I'm looking at. I can only wonder when I lost that feeling.

I was thinking a lot this week about how likely it is that everyday in this world a few thousand people are treated poorly. Maybe they're cheated on or lied to or oppressed because of their life choices. I dunno, whatever the facts are. Yeah, bad shit happens and we all deserve a little mistreatment from time to time because we've all treated other people that way in the past. What really chaps my ass is when people cling to that like it was their damn life's credo. "I was in love once and then they fucked me over and now I can't bear to love again" is only acceptable as back story for a romance flick (starring John Cusack as the disheveled ne'er-do-well and Kate Hudson as the no nonsense waitress).

Honestly, what in hell is wrong with some people? When being an asshole to people who clearly don't deserve it becomes your modus operandi you can't make excuses involving your bullshit side of a story that happened years ago. No slight, real or imagined, gives you license to treat your friends like dirt and the whole 'play by my rules or don't play at all' attitude is really pathetic. One can easily get fed up with being someone else's stock excuse even when it doesn't directly involve him.

So if I ever treat someone like shit I am going to just say it was because my best friend from 2 years ago said we could only be friends if we did it on his terms and I just can't bear to be betrayed again. That sounds reasonable, right?

Now for something completely different.

Played through Resident Evil 4 and Gun, both of which were solid games. They both did that crap where they unlock things for you to use in the game AFTER you beat it. So you have to play through again. You really have to put faith in the quality of your game's re-playability to do that. Finished A Feast For Crows this week, too. I am geared up to GM A Game of Thrones as soon as I feel we've dealt with enough in Orpheus to take a break.

Merry upcoming Christmas, too. My posting history indicates I won't make another notch in this thing until Valentines Day so I better get my well wishes out now.

So Matt asks me how long it has been since I updated my livejournal and I'm like "A month, I guess." Well, that was a bit off from the looks of it so I guess I better put something up here. I'll run down a list of occurrences since last May.

A) Changed departments at work.
- Not a promotion, really, but it does mean I'll be going to a different team once my present team dissolves. Which is great by me because my old supervisor sucked.

2) Spent a week in New Orleans.
- This was fun. Creepy tombs, jazz, kick ass food. The house where the crazy bitch turned her slaves into medical experiments was twisted. Oh, and voodoo is still bullshit but at least it's amusing bullshit.

D) Moved the big TV and grill.
- Now I can cook up some kabobs or something while I watch Skinimax softcore on a screen that I can actually see.

So, what is in line for the future?

I) Gaming
- I have this Star Wars game to finish up and then I'll be starting the Growing Up in Theah epic. I'm shooting for September for the start of that one. I've got the conclusion of that 'traveling to the Crescent Empire in chains' game to run for Ricky & Co. as well as the 1st Edition DnD game but those won't crop up until the end of this year at the earliest. Ricky's got a kickass Little Fears game running at the moment so all is well on that end. Maybe one day Matt will grow some balls and run us a game.

XX) Gencon, baby!
- Yup, all the preparations are in order. Gotta pick up a copy of the Serenity RPG while I'm there. Gonna be good times. I just have to remember to drop in on that Alcatraz place and get some of that beer they make. So tasty, and in gallon jugs no less.

I really don't have much else to bring up. Things are continuing on as they always have so I've got no complaints there. Hope everyone is doing well on their side of the screen.

My full time position at work went official today. Two hours of boring orientation later and I'm still doing the same thing I've been doing for six months. I am getting $1.50 more an hour, a pension plan, 401K, two weeks vacation (rising to three next January), and excellent benefits for doing it, though. I also got the car worked on a bit so I can drive it around. Needs $300 bucks in CV joint repairs and some body work, but I'm pleased with it.

Gaming is going well, with a Silver Age Sentinals game on Wednesday and Little Fears on Saturday. There is talk of some Montaigne Revolution soon, also. I found a bunch of 1st edition D&D stuff at the used book palace by my new place. The idea of running the game that I started gaming on all those years ago fills me with nostalgia and joy. Some of you may know what I'm talking about. Seperate spell lists for Druids and Illusionists? The original monk? The bard that wasn't even allowed to sit with the other classes in the creation section because it was so cool? I'm gonna set to work converting the campaign world I converted to 3.0 BACK to 1st and see about running that sometime this summer.

I got stuff to do.

1) Get a haircut, dammit.
2) Get my car fixed.
3) Buy a wireless router & graphics card for my computer.

I guess that's not too much.

Go see Kung Fu Hustle. That movie is amazing. Also, there is a new Zorro movie coming out. I love Zorro. And Serenity, the movie continuation of the ill-fated Fox series Firefly (which was great) is due out in September. Good movies all year long. I am using this icon as my default for awhile because The Devil's Rejects (sequel to House of A Thousand Corpses) is due out shortly. Sadly, I have very few friends with any taste so I won't be seeing that with a group. I could reinstate the ritual I'd made before and go hit each of the bars around Veterans AMC before catching the movie. Doesn't seem as interesting by yourself, though.

Alright, last night I went to see Sin City. Before I involve myself in my thoughts on the film, there are a few things that need to be stated. This movie is not for everyone, so here is my handy checklist to help the average outsider decide about spending their money.

Sin City is probably not for you if...

...you are not a fan of noir and the elements of that genre.

...you are offended by violence, nudity, and killer whores.

...you have never read the graphic novels.

Honestly. I have heard from a few people that they didn't like the movie. Upon further investigation, I discovered that they had never read the novels and had no idea what they were walking into. Bad idea for a movie of this nature. This film is a faithful adaptation (translation, some might say) of Sin City to the screen. Do your research.

Now, that said, the movie is amazing. The dialogue is completely Sin City. The casting is excellent. The violence is an wonderful mix of vicious and laughable. And the color...the use of color was simply the icing on this $3,000 dollar wedding cake. I simply cannot recommend the film enough.

7th Sea tonight, and if someone doesn't cut off another person's limbs I'm gonna be disappointed.

Well, it's finally over. After a year of play, upwards of 100 sessions of development, the Clemency Hunter game has come to a close. It was more of an Empire Strikes Back ending, setting up for the future epilogue that I will probably run towards the end of the year. It was a great game, with the characters fighting the odds to form a group capable of standing up against the creatures that opposed them. Watching them strive from starting Hunters, each of a different Virtue, was great fun. The introduction of extremism and the divine/corrupt/independant path choices in the last months really kicked their relationships in the ass and made for some great sessions. And, for me, it was my first year long (with a required few months break in the middle) game and the most comprehensive chronicle I've run. Three cheers.

On the life front, I was approved for a nice house-to-apartment conversion down 9th Street from where I live. It's spacious with rooms for an office to write in (assuming I stop putting it off) and a studio for the artist (assuming she stops putting it off). I may even host games there once I'm back in the mood to run them.

Today I was informed that I got the permanent position I was hoping for. More money, same job. Vacation, holidays paid. Insurance. Good news for me. Should be able to afford the apartment easily now.

Trying my hand at writing again. I'm so rusty it almost hurts the brain. I need to try some basic story writing to get back in the swing of it before I try to set something serious down on paper. Maybe I'll write them on here. Atleast the journal would see more use that way. We'll see.

Anyhow, I've got to get to work so I'll revisit this thing later. Hope everyone is doing well in their respective lives.

What exactly is it with people telling me what to do this week? To specify, I'm not talking about giving advice. Even advice I don't ask for would be preferable. I'm talking about those fucks who come out of nowhere, into a conversation that doesn't even remotely involve them or their point of view, and decide to tell me exactly what I need to do. If you don't sign my paycheck keep your damn trap shut about what choices I should make. Especially if you try to put anything remotely religious in your explanation. The more I hear religious rhetoric the less tolerant I become of people using my air. Pushing people into poorly constructed cubicles is not wise, I will add. My only saving grace is that I only work two more days this week. That gives me plenty of time for two, count them, two 7th Sea games and a night of video game madness before Monday. Oh, and reveling in gluttony.

Besides the aforementioned BS, the job is excellent. I really enjoy the flexible schedule, and the OT makes the checks nice and plump. I plucked a tag off the christmas tree at work today so I'm in the market for a gift for an anonymous 11 year old orphan boy. I know what *I* would have liked, but that stuff is all pretty much off the list of 'acceptable gifts'. I'll find something nice while I'm out shopping for the family. Sometimes it feels good to indulge my socialist nature.

Do I have anything to say now that the election madness has died down? Nah. Anyone who knows me can draw their own conclusions about my thoughts. I'm worn down, though, tired of everyone being so on edge about it all. Things have started to settle in, though. I guess some people think it is time to bunker down and wait for things to get uglier. Cause they will. I just hope that they don't just try to weather it out this time. It's interesting to see how far people are willing to be pushed before they push back.

I've always found that particular issue interesting, actually. For as long as I can remember I have been the type of person to push buttons just to see how much someone will take. It's instinctive, I do it before I even realize it. I've noticed it a lot at work lately, and I don't know if it is worse now that I've become so irritable or if I've always done it to such a large degree.

I'm going to try to get back into a regular posting habit. No promises, though.

Fuck the Cheney family. Yeah, you heard me. Thy cup o' hypocritical bullshit runneth over. Pricks.

Everyone who is reading this better have their vote cast by tommorrow night. Beware my wrath on those who abstain.

Ok, so I've been busy getting into this new work schedule. I'm starting to get used to it so the 10 hours a week overtime is my next hurdle. Typing in a line, checking two programs against a paper, typing in another line and then going to the next page is painful after 2 hours. The checks are more than welcome, though.

City of Heroes is still awesome. GTA:SA is rocking. MK: Deception, The Bard's Tale, and Halo 2 are all on the list for upcoming plays. I'm starting both a 7th Sea and an Adventure! game over the next couple weeks, so that should be a good outlet.

Now I have to crash cause tommorrow is an early day for me.

Let's sit in the corner for a minute and talk about health care, shall we? It is probably going to be a large part of the Edwards/Cheney debate tonight, if they can stop talking about Iraq for a moment, and if you've followed the speeches by these two gentlemen at all you should know where they stand. Now, I would never claim to be an expert on the industry but I have devoted some years of my life to working in it so I have seen some things. Since I don't expect most people who read this will watch the debate, I'm going to touch on things beforehand and then update after the debate is over with my thoughts. I've heard many claims that frivolous lawsuits are to blame for the rise in health care costs. These claims being a key factor of a large number of Bush/Cheney ads. They would have you believe that Edwards, being a trial lawyer who often stood with the individual over large companies, promotes the idea of frivilous lawsuits. Let's dig into this slice of bullshit carefully, shall we?

First of all, frivolous (which I take to mean unneccessary) lawsuits are an occurance in all facets of life in this country. The "sue their pants off" option exists for nearly any slight, real or imagined. I won't say that some lawsuits against doctors, hospitals, or insurance companies are not unneccessary. I will say that most lawsuits against them are not frivolous. Most of them are an attempt to seek due compensation for injury and malpractice. I have seen many hospital mistakes, mostly minor, during my time in that industry. I have even seen a death as a result of serious misjudgement. These mistakes happen, and the lawsuits that result are not frivolous.

Are they to blame for the rising cost of health care in our country? Sorry, that's just not the case. The insurance companies have to take the rap for that little ecomonic ripple. They use the lawsuit excuse to inflate the cost of doing business in medicine and make no mistake, medicine is a business. So their inflated costs float down to the hospital in the form of cutbacks. Many hospitals face supply shortages, and the supplies they get are not up to the task. Many hospitals face severe nursing shortages despite increasingly large numbers of nursing school graduates each year. It's not that there aren't nurses to hire, it's that the hospitals can't pay them. Nurses are the lifeline to hospitalized patients. Where doctors see the patients at most once a day, nurses are responsible for the constant monitoring and administration.

When you work understaffed with inferior equipment, mistakes become more prevelant. Those mistakes lead to lawsuits, which the insurance companies then point out as they crank up the money they charge for doing business. Pockets get lined and the only person who suffers is the sick man or woman who just wants to get back to their families. To wage war on 'frivolous' lawsuits and ignore the corporations that cause the problem is not only wrong, it's criminal.

This is where I break from my largely Libertarian leanings, along with my thoughts on gun control and welfare. Government could very easily take charge of the health care industry and reduce these inflated costs by a huge margin. The latest studies have placed that reduction at anywhere from 19 to 21 cents less per dollar. That adds up to billions a year. A government has an obligation to secure the protection and welfare of it's people. That simply cannot be held only to a military function. While I do not forsee our country ever placing healthcare in the hands of government, I do atleast hope we start focusing the blame where it actually belongs. You cannot fix what is broken if you don't have the proper tools.

Edit:

Let me first address the debate as a whole.

Credit needs to be given to Dick Cheney for his composure. As much as I dislike the administration, Cheney knows how to speak. And he doesn't speak when he doesn't need to. If he didn't spend so much of his speaking time being deceptive and dishonest, I might actually say I really respect him.

Negative marks to both candidates for their lack of etiquette. They both had moments of disrespectful commentary, speaking beyond their alloted time, and speaking out of turn. Not smart, guys.

The commentary on medical costs was suprisingly consistent, and yet I can't really make a clear picture in my head of what either group intends to do. They both talked alot about what the problem is, and claimed to have a plan to fix it. No details were forthcoming. Neither party made the commentary regarding insurance companies that would have caught my attention.

Working on track record alone, the Bush/Cheney administration simply cannot win on the economy. They have badly misused the power that was given them in regards to our economic development, that point cannot be argued. Am I better off now than I was 4 years ago? Hell no.

This debate really didn't have, in my eyes, a clear winner. Both men had positive and negative aspects of their performance. Neither shined as well as Kerry did in his debate, and none came across as poorly as Bush did in his. With both candidates claiming that the other was simply lying/smoke screening/dilluting the facts I feel the actual messages they wished to present were lost. I wanted to see a better showing from Edwards, but I think his law background put him in a 'prove the other guy wrong' mindset and that is not what you need to do in a debate. You need to prove your point. Cheney had the misfortune of having to support a platform that has largely failed in the eyes of the American people. Even their supporters can see the serious flaws that must be amended.

Friday is the second Kerry/Bush debate. Here's to hoping we get some good economic time in.

With the first debate behind us, I cannot help but wonder how much has changed. How many "undecided" voters have been swayed? How many people were that deeply impressed by either of the voices? More importantly, what exactly do you have to do to convince some people to make a choice? How can you be undecided in this election? These candidates are as different as any two people can get and still run for president.

Honestly, I have always been of the belief that the rich will stay rich and the poor will stay poor no matter who is in power. I do not feel that the change of the president or the ruling party in congress will make earth shattering changes to the world as we know it. So why would I feel so strongly about voting? Why would hearing people say they won't vote because it does not matter make my skin crawl? The little things, that's why. Little things change when the people in charge do. The rich stay rich, but the poor may get a little more breathing room between paychecks. Jobs open based on an economy that, while larger than any one person, is greatly altered by the choices that one person made. Health care, something I feel particularly strongly on, is directly under the sway of how deeply the insurance companies have their hold on candidates.

This appears to have been the War on Terror debate, which ultimately means the War in Iraq debate. It should not be the same issue, but it seems that is how it will be for the remainder of the month. The war in Iraq is a drop in the bucket. A large, brightly colored, very loud drop...but only a drop. The issues are many and most of them effect us all more often than the war does. Kerry and Bush have similar plans for Iraq, and while they disagree on what got them there they both intend to see it through. That does not mean they are the same. That does not mean electing one will be the same as electing another. It does not mean that not voting is making some kind of stand.

This is not an election to sit on your hands. To say that this is the most important election of my generation's lifetime is not an understatement. I try to be accepting when people make choices no matter the logic behind them. It could be said that the freedoms we are afforded give us the right not to get involved in politics. I won't argue that, but I will ask how you can stomach not taking a stand. I have met many people who don't vote, some who have never in their 50 or 60 year lives voted. I have NEVER met someone who does not complain about some aspect of our government. NEVER. If you care enough to bitch, you should care enough to get off your ass and make a choice. The only wrong choice is not to make one.

Next topic.

Life in general is uninspired. Nothing new to comment on. Gotta plug City of Heroes again because it's great and the world would be better if everyone played it. Well, maybe not everyone. You know who you are.

Gotta spend more time with Natalie. Maybe after this Howl-O-Scream crap is over we can plan a vacation.

Jon Stewart brought up a good point on The Daily Show today, and since it relates to one I've been stuck on lately I guess I'll devote some otherwise untouched journal space to it. A brief pause before I go there to touch on another issue. I miss Bill Clinton. I hadn't realized this because, in truth, I never really gave Clinton much consideration. Sure, I saw report after report after report about all the "terrible" things he was doing while in office, but we have never once had an honest man as president and we never will. What I didn't see was all the good things he did. You know, the policies he put through and the reforms he inspired. The things a president is supposed to do. I guess that stuff gets swept under the rug when blowjobs are mentioned. But after watching his speech at the DNC and his interview tonight, I really miss the man. He is so many things that I would be proud to have in the leader of the country I live in. A feeling of pride that is too little, too late.

So I ask you now, where is all the outcry for controversy now? Where is all the revolution? Why don't we have plazas filled with furious people demanding justice? It is not as if we are at a loss for things to revile. Acts of inhumanity, the oppressive thumb of the powerful crushing those who make less money than them, the mountain of lies upon lies that grows taller by the day. And those are just domestic issues. Are the days when a man would stand in front of a tank to make his point far behind us? Are all the good revolutionaries dead? Probably, the lifespan of a good revolutionary is what? A decade? Two at best?

I just don't understand why we do nothing. Is everyone like me? Filled with anger and disgust, but just too damn lazy to get something started? Is it possible that I've been reading too many books and essays about people who WERE willing to step up for what they believe in? Both very distinct possibilites. But how can we have fallen so far in less than 4 years? People were out for blood during the 90's. There were more hearings and indictments and reports about "-gate" scandals than there were actual scandals. Does someone deserve a medal for browbeating us so severly that we are afraid to question, or is it just that the people who were doing the yelling and screaming back then are the ones responsible for the scandals now?

How can we look around and not be disgusted?

No gaming update of substance. The group has a new 7th seas game starting up, and I'm not having to run it, so that might be joy. Deadlands should wrap up by September, leaving 2 months for the second installment of Hunter and then 2 months for my Numa campaign.

So here is how things stand at the present.

Deadlands is going smooth. Last session got me back in the mindset, so I'm probably going to keep it going longer than I planned. I've got a new book on the way that will help me with the Mexico business. The group is less one player which leaves me with 4. I've found that Deadlands works better with fewer people so this should be a good thing in terms of keeping a smooth running session. Gonna introduce some things that I didn't touch on in the last game with the next couple sessions, so that will be exciting. Can't give away much in advance.

Two games coming up in the future. All Flesh Must be Eaten (in space) will be starting the Friday after next. I'm looking at a 5 person group on that one, but that may rise to 6 or 7 before the start. All Flesh is a game I can easily manage large groups with. Should be interesting times on that front. Also, I'm starting an online Godlike campaign. I've got two definates on that one despite not having a definate start date. One to three more and I'll be ready to get that going. I'll take open calls for spots on that one, just shoot me an IM and I'll let you know if I have spots left.

Oh, and let me tell you about pricks in Largo. Some stringy haired, grungy looking bastard tried to rob me with a knife up near Largo mall this week. I was lucky enough to not have any money on me, but the police were useless in regards to taking a report that would make a difference in catching the creep. I guess people running around with knives trying to rob other people ranks up there with people trying to break into other people's cars with the Largo PD. Probably some dangerous speeder out there that needs chasing down.

I need a damn job. I better find one on Monday or I'm gonna be pissed. Well, more pissed. Pissed because I'll have to take a job I've been avoiding taking. Sure, I can always get a job if I really want to bite the bullet. I've just been trying to avoid that. I don't want to have to quit because I can't handle getting hassled.

I have been playing way too much City of Heroes lately. I've finally settled on a few character to devote my time to. If I can get something working on this computer to host some pictures on my webspace I'll throw a few shots up.

Just got back from seeing I, Robot and I gotta say I was very pleased. It was one of the rare times that I went in expecting nothing and got a whole lot. I need to pick it up when it comes out on DVD.

I have to say that in the last year I have had to look at someone and ask myself "Who the fuck is this person?" far too many times. I can only chalk this up to being a bad judge of character, easily duped into believing that people are what I want to see them as. I believe that these people have the traits I saw in them, the facets that I truly admired once. Sometimes it's just not enough to overshadow the grime underneath. I have to make a concentrated effort to watch people more closely in the future. I have to make my decisions with more deliberation. And I need to stop giving people license to guide my choices.

Nursing school, application sent and tests taken. Financial Aid is a maybe, still searching for my tax info to fill out the FASFA. 3 grand isn't a terrible amount to save up if that falls through. I'm not looking at acceptance before January of next year. So for now I'll be an underpaid laborer, eating shit from bosses who serve it because they can. That's life, it doesn't go the way you want it to. You deal or you don't.

Adventure! didn't happen tonight. Illness among the players. Hopefully next week will pan out so I can get these people deep into the story. If not, I'll start up All Flesh in Space. Oh, and Deadlands is still running strong. See if I can stretch it for a month or so to give me time to work up the next phase of Hunter. Then maybe I'll do the 7th Sea Numa campaign.

On the fence about City of Heroes. I'd like to get into it, but I'm just not convinced it's worth the price. We shall see.

Random Space Filling Quote:
"The dead cannot cry out for justice; it is a duty of the living to do so for them."
-- Lois McMaster Bujold

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